What a couple of weeks! I haven’t visited London for ages, and last week saw me going up three times. On Wednesday I went to a couple of press days and for lunch with some blogging friends, old and new. Thursday saw the final of the Mollie Makes Handmade Awards (more on that later), and Friday was the start of a whole weekend of everything blog-shaped at Blogtacular (more on this later too). It makes me feel a bit tired just listing it here, and it was a week of go, go, go. I had to work really hard to find any pauses for thought and any moments of stillness.
It just happened to be a week where lots of lovely opportunities came clumped together, and I just tried my best to roll with it. More and more I am learning that there is something beneficial about riding with the momentum, and trusting it’s going to take you somewhere good.
I did have a bit of a wobble on Friday morning though and started to question what I was doing and whether it was worth all this time apart from Bailey. I aired my concerns on Instagram and quickly had lots of support and understanding from other mothers out there who have the same struggle. Alexis from Something I Made gave me some great advice “make it count”. This became my mantra for the weekend and I repeated it to myself several times.
When I would find my mind wandering or my concentration going simply because I was so tired and was reaching information overload, I would whisper to myself ‘make it count’ and shift my focus back on being as present as possible. I was so determined to make sure I got the most from all these opportunities that had come my way, and I knew I needed to be present to make authentic connections with people.
For someone who doesn’t do big groups of people easily, tends to be a bit of a loner, and can quickly feel unsure about things, having that sort of week is extra tiring, and I am definitely currently paying for it. However I surprised myself with how comfortable I felt. I guess I have had quite a bit of practice recently of talking to people I don’t really know and that has helped no end.
One thing I wasn’t expecting is how good it feels to be part of a bigger blogging community. Having previously been someone who often felt like the odd one out, it was a happy change to feel like one of many. I had that feeling at Sisterhood Camp and found it so touching, but I wasn’t expecting to feel that way at Blogtacular because the nature of the events are so different. It no doubt helped that there were several of my ‘sisters’ there, and I am sure this had something to do with how much I felt able to open up with others and get straight-down to the good stuff. Definitely knowing I wanted to focus on ‘being present & making it count’ really helped me get the most from the weekend.
Apologies for the unplanned two week break, but as you can see, life got a bit busy. Can’t wait to share with you all that I have learnt after what’s been such an inspirational month.
Finally, if you are In Worthing or Sussex and fancy coming to look at some art, the Worthing Art Trail is on for the next two weekends and Margot and her fellow East Beach Studios are part of the trail too. I will be there this Saturday (the 20th) and next Sunday (the 28th). Give me a shout on the social network of your choice if you think you might swing by. Would be great to see you.