Where did you go to?
I miss the light you set free,
Time to come back please.
I have been sitting at my computer for over 30 minutes now, typing without really saying very much. It’s like a muscle gone un-stretched. It feels a little weird and wobbly to be writing here but, boy have I missed it.
Actually, May and June were full of typing with the freelance writing work I’ve been doing (super thankful about all of that and I’ll let you know when the pieces are out) and of course busy publishing The Slow Living Retreat – which was great fun. Connecting with you all on here feels very different though. And now that I get started, it feels as though there is lots to say, like it has all been simmering away under the surface waiting for the opportunity to be released. Too much for one blog post that’s for sure.
The break was long overdue and I have been really leaning into doing less – partly because it’s summer and I want to soak up all that time with my little one – but also because my body really needed a rest.
Some space for reflection and to enjoy all that I have been doing has been great. It’s hard to digest stuff properly when you are constantly creating.
Now though, I have reached a tipping point. What was a healthy break has gradually shifted into a bit of avoidance of things, and some mild numbing by binge-watching various TV dramas. It’s definitely time to bring more creativity back into my days.
Creating is where a big part of my light comes from and is fundamental to my well-being, and living a wholehearted life.
By it being absent from my days I have found myself slipping into a negative headspace; things feel flat, everything looks a little dull and I am struggling to feel inspired by anything.
It’s as if, momentarily I forgot that it is as necessary for me to create and express as it is for me to breathe in and out.
The very wise Brene Brown says “Unused creativity is not benign. It metastasizes. It turns into grief, rage, judgement, sorrow, shame.”
This is such an impeccable observation and from personal experience and witnessing friends and family I know it to be true.
Creativity is an energy, a life force, it needs to feed into something – if it goes unused it doesn’t just evaporate. If we’re not going to allow it to flow into creation of some kind then it makes sense that it will fester and manifest in some other form.
The challenge I have at the moment, is that finding creative moments seems harder than before. This is partly because I have lost that spark of joy around certain aspects of creativity, plus my relationship with my creativity has changed a lot over the last year.
I needed this ‘wake-up call’ to remember why creativity is in my life. It’s an opportunity to re-evaluate how I approach any creative work and its purpose. I have so many thoughts to share on creativity, joy and wellbeing that I will devote a whole blog post to it and save it for another time.
Also, coming soon… and it’s only taken me nearly half the year to complete, but our Simple Kitchen is finally finished. I will share pictures and the details of our process really soon.
Hope you have all had wonderful summers. It’s great to be back.