This last few weeks I have felt that there are a lot of new beginnings just around the corner. Along with the change of the season, September always brings a general ‘back to school’ feeling, plus it’s Bailey’s first day of school ever this week.
Also, the start of the month saw the start of a new moon. I don’t know much about astrology, and I don’t even read my horoscope very often, but more and more I am noticing how the moon effects my mood and emotions. And, whilst there are actually some big changes happening at the moment, I am sure the new moon intensified some of what I, and others (including the four year old) have been feeling.
I know the heaviest of these changes is Bailey starting school. She knows something is about to be different, but until she has actually started, the idea is a bit conceptual for her, and for me too. It’s hard to fast-forward and know precisely how you will feel about an event, even one that has been a long time coming. Actually, I think in some ways, the anticipation and build up makes it worse. All Summer we have talked about school, been to buy the uniform, got new shoes etc… all of these individual things that lead up to this week, just add a bit of pressure.
Things look a little different around here. I don’t just mean the way that the blog looks (although that is different too). The new design is not 100% finished yet, and the blog will probably sit in this ‘nearly done state’ for a little while.
Originally I started the Monthly Voice to let you know where I have been finding inspiration each month, and to share things that have captured my heart. However I spent most of April trying to slow down and reconnect to my heart and find any form of inspiration at all. Occasionally inspiration would strike, but it would quickly dissipate into a fog of tiredness.
Oddly, even though really good things have been happening recently, it was one of the most challenging months I have had for a while. I’m experiencing this disconcerting mix of feeling stuck, yet also feeling like I am right on the verge of something. I have only just figured out that fear is playing a big part in holding me back, but I will write more about this soon.
Back at the beginning of the summer I was sitting at Blogtacular, notebook and pen in hand, ready to listen to Grace Bonney’s keynote speech. The previous 6 months had been busy ones. We were preparing for the summer at Margot, and still establishing what we wanted to do with the beach hut. Personally I was identifying and developing my style as a maker, whilst of course, sewing, designing, and making some stock. Plus I was balancing that alongside blogging, and doing some freelance writing.
It’s been almost a week and half since the Margot ladies had a day trip to London for the Mollie Makes Handmade Awards. If you missed the exciting news, Margot was a finalist in the collaboration category alongside two other collaborative projects.
We knew a good day would be had by all, whether we were to win or not. Team Mollie Makes had organised a jam-packed day of mentoring and activities for us to do. Plus it would give us an opportunity to chat everything making and creative with some fellow crafty folk.
What a couple of weeks! I haven’t visited London for ages, and last week saw me going up three times. On Wednesday I went to a couple of press days and for lunch with some blogging friends, old and new. Thursday saw the final of the Mollie Makes Handmade Awards (more on that later), and Friday was the start of a whole weekend of everything blog-shaped at Blogtacular (more on this later too). It makes me feel a bit tired just listing it here, and it was a week of go, go, go. I had to work really hard to find any pauses for thought and any moments of stillness.
It just happened to be a week where lots of lovely opportunities came clumped together, and I just tried my best to roll with it. More and more I am learning that there is something beneficial about riding with the momentum, and trusting it’s going to take you somewhere good. Read More