To my girl who turned six….
Thank you for making me a mother, for allowing me to know the depths of a mother’s love.
Both pure and powerful, simple and raw.
My heart was sleeping until I held you in my arms. You awoke a new level consciousness, where all feelings are bigger than they were before. I have felt the soaring heights of happiness, the fiery heat of anger, the deeper shades of sadness.
And just like that, four seasons have been and gone and our little one is another year older.
Five – a whole handful! She is very proud to show people how ‘many’ she is with a thrust of her palm. I’d forgotten what it was like to be little and to feel so excited to be another year older. Bailey has been looking forward to being five for a good few months now. As soon as Christmas had been and gone, she was on to the next highlight of the year… her birthday.
All parents everywhere know how challenging the school run can be. It has the power to turn the most sensible and reasonable grown-up into a quivering mess. What is it about those first few hours of the day? They bewitch us and we end up barking one syllable words over and over again at our children…”SHOES!” “TEETH!” “COAT!”
Honestly, if anyone saw me in the morning trying to hustle Bailey out the door, there is no way they would think I was an advocate for slow living.
I am convinced that time is actually faster for those early morning hours. Every day, without fail, minutes seem to disappear.
Thanks for all your well wishes about starting school. So far, so good.
It’s been a little while since I’ve done one of these posts, so I thought I would share some of the wonderful things Bailey has said over the last three months or so – life through the eyes of a four and a half year old.
Her language is still punctuated by ‘4 year old talk’, she mispronounces things, or gets the tense wrong. Or she’ll use words or phrases that are beyond her years, which instantly makes them funny. Best of all though, is the little glimpse we get into her imagination and sense of humour. The way she gets lost in her creative play is something else, and it is quite magical to be around.
Here is the world according to Bailey….
This last few weeks I have felt that there are a lot of new beginnings just around the corner. Along with the change of the season, September always brings a general ‘back to school’ feeling, plus it’s Bailey’s first day of school ever this week.
Also, the start of the month saw the start of a new moon. I don’t know much about astrology, and I don’t even read my horoscope very often, but more and more I am noticing how the moon effects my mood and emotions. And, whilst there are actually some big changes happening at the moment, I am sure the new moon intensified some of what I, and others (including the four year old) have been feeling.
I know the heaviest of these changes is Bailey starting school. She knows something is about to be different, but until she has actually started, the idea is a bit conceptual for her, and for me too. It’s hard to fast-forward and know precisely how you will feel about an event, even one that has been a long time coming. Actually, I think in some ways, the anticipation and build up makes it worse. All Summer we have talked about school, been to buy the uniform, got new shoes etc… all of these individual things that lead up to this week, just add a bit of pressure.